Trusting God with everything is often very difficult. I know He wants us to give Him everything, but everything is…well, everything.
Because of my personality, I often think ahead and jump to the next thing rather than living in the moment and enjoying where God has called me. Don’t get me wrong, I love my life at Lighthouse Family Church, but I can’t help but wonder what’s next for me. Wow, I feel so convicted. God has spoken very clearly that it’s not time for me to know yet, and that I need to remain faithful to the commitments I have made here. He has called me here for a season, however long that season may be, I must be faithful and 100% focused on what’s in front of me. I’m thankful that God knows me so well. He knows what I need and knows just how much to tell me about my future at just the right time.
My visa expires June 1, 2010. I started freaking out about this recently. So, I have to decide if I want to go home for a visit, how long to stay, or do I stay in the country and renew my visa? Do I try and find a part-time job and switch to a working visa? Will there be jobs available? Should I consider going for a Master’s Degree and get a study visa? Will I be in PE long enough to do this? If I leave this country, will I come back to PE or go somewhere else? Do I come back on a volunteer visa and return home to the US every year? There is a lot to think about.
As I sit here and write this, I feel so convicted of not trusting God. I know that He holds everything in His hands, but I am still fearful!
I am really asking for your prayers because my emotions have been so up and down lately. I know that if I continue to ask God for what He has for me, He will never lead me astray. But it still doesn’t make it easy. I guess that’s why it’s called FAITH! Believing that which we cannot see. “Now faith is being sure of what we hope for and certain of what we do not see” Hebrews 11:1.
Please stand with me as I try to lay down my desires and surrender my future to the One who holds everything in His hands!
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I pray that you will seek the Lord day by day. He will direct your steps one at a time, most times I have know idea where each step will take me.
I have different issues than you Leah, but I struggle daily to trust God with my life – the now and tommorrow. All I can say to you is everytime you feel weak in trusting or being fearful close your eyes and pray. You will instantly feel better. You are loved and admired by many Leah!
Just think about all the work you still have to do… and that should keep you pretty occupied until God tells you what to do next…
Might I add…. remember the final packet Tag gave us for changing things around us/finding out what God wants us to do? If you need me to send it to you, I will.